Frustration is a wasted emotion

Mel and I are so frustrated that Netflix instant movie only works on PCs... Booo

I am constantly bugged by my manager she has some serious weridonesses and she always putts me down :( Today she asked me if I had brushed my hair.. hahah but I LOVE my longgg ass shakira hair, that is stil sorta wavy reaches my waist and sexy as hell.

Infinita Tristeza

Do you ever feel that within the deep recesses of your being there is an infinite sadness?
A sadness that you do not visit often but is always there?

I , for one, feel this pain and am reminded of it with any pedestrian trauma. Almost as if they were smaller peaks of a , larger, above-surface iceberg ( 75% is underwater, unseen you know..).

A strange twist ,however, to my pit of un-curable melancholy, is that as often as I feel tinges of this pain during bad times, it is just as much the beautiful and stunning that brings me back to that infinite lonely sentiment...

I almost feel as if it were some sort or life-altering incident that I have lived just a lifetime ago that I can still catch glimpses of. Something heartbreakingly sad that is always lingering at the back of my heart.


Does anyone else feel like that?

Bizzare

Crazy. My dog died. He was 15 years old in human years! You do the math... The last couple of years he's been so old we just let him sleep and eat, if anything I saw him as more of a pain in the butt than a loved pet. But now that he's gone I am questioning my treatment of him...I feel guilty for nit playing with him more..for not being more affectionate.

My clothes are still covered in his white fur :/
RIP Laddie boy July4th 1993

Doucheeee

Making up has been...ok. But of course we have returned to our old ways of fighting and the like about you know who. How unproductive, a true waste of emotional time.
Oh well.
I found someone over Craigslist that wants to speak spanish with me :) I'm excited , I hope it results like I imagined.
The last couple of days i've been resting and recovering from working so much. Sleeping and tanning, yeeeeee.
I have nothing intelligent to say, just thought I'd report on my day to day life.



This is the only thing keeping me going... my beautiful ridiculous juicy keychain :) ( that I did NOT but at 'madbargins')

Sorpresita

Continuing on yesterday's idea....
Isnt it nice to sometimes be proved wrong by the world?
First (or earlier) impressions arent always fully accurate.
Who would think that being proved wrong could feel so good!

Uno nunca se cansa de hablar de si mismo

A ver...
Ive been thinking about what the appeal of blogging is versus writing in a paper journal. I for one love the crispness of a new journal ( and collecting them yiiikes) and the satisfied feeling of accomplishment when I look back on past hand written entries. But writing or typing online is freeing and feels less committal. Almost like a passive way of being aggressive with our feelings and opinions without doing anything too drastic...

As of late, Olive and I have been discussing something that Im sure people our age probably consider quite often. Statements, semi permanent ones about who we are, how we funcion as people. It would be ideal if we could find a way to summarize how we think, react and deal, even better if we could sum it up in a catchy three line paragraph in our 'About Me'. But I am finding out these can only exist honestly for a certain amount of time before they spoil. Though we might feel embarrassed when we catch ourselves enjoying that food we swore we hated, or silly when we look back on those all or nothing statements about who we are, remember that no matter how hard we try there is no way that we can sum ourselves up in three sentences or even a long paragraph.
But wouldn't you prefer it that way?
I know I do.

Inspiration

Some things that have been inspiring me...
-Fafi and her fafettes
-notcot!!
-Alicia Keyes
-Ruben Dario
-"Wanderlust"
-Frida Khalo
-Katchafire
-Being forced to survive
without soy chais
-Spring dresses
-chocolate covered madellines
-Travel writing
-chocolate slimfast shakes
-micro loans
-the library
-'Daisy' Marc Jacobs
-"Al Diablo con Los Guapos"
-"Sexy can I...?"
-San Diego Weather